"Stars...you are the sentinels, silent and sure. Keeping watch in the night"
- Stars Les Misérables
24th May 2016 - a diary entry
I love night time. I really do. Not only is the silence the only real escape I can get from life, but the absence of light is just so comforting. The daylight makes me feel busy, like I'm procrastinating from more important things. But then, when it's dark outside, I can relax and know that this time of the day is my time for only me.
30th December 2016 - a text to a good friend
Okay so: I look up out of my bedroom window after 4 hours of comforting [another friend over text]. I don't see any stars. And I immediately begin willing them to show up and for my eyes to adjust to the darkness and show them up. But that never happened, I feel really disappointed and I don't think I'll be able to sleep without them. They're my source of hope. They're exploding balls of gas, but they create and everlasting, beautiful legacy that helps people find their way.
Today - 14th January 2017 - a blog post draft
Looks like I see stars quite differently now. Previously, only 7 months beforehand, I had seen stars as a reason for relaxation and a beautiful accompaniment to the darkness of the sky. As a time for me to just stop and take it all in. More recently, however, as I've become more and more dependent on the little hope and motivation I have left, I see stars as a hope for the future. They're exploding, they should be dead and gone, but instead they become beautiful lights in the sky amongst all that darkness. Even after the initial explosion (once there is little fuel left to continue burning), the stars become smaller until they expand and become red giants (then white giants, black giants). Even the really massive stars, their core turns into iron when they run out of fuel, which makes it collapse and explode into a supernova. These balls of gas explode in on themselves, then continue to burn until they can't any longer, then they become even more beautiful. I like to think that people can be like that :))
"Stars, they got nothing on us"
- Light The Sky Grace Vanderwaal
- Stars Les Misérables
24th May 2016 - a diary entry
I love night time. I really do. Not only is the silence the only real escape I can get from life, but the absence of light is just so comforting. The daylight makes me feel busy, like I'm procrastinating from more important things. But then, when it's dark outside, I can relax and know that this time of the day is my time for only me.
30th December 2016 - a text to a good friend
Okay so: I look up out of my bedroom window after 4 hours of comforting [another friend over text]. I don't see any stars. And I immediately begin willing them to show up and for my eyes to adjust to the darkness and show them up. But that never happened, I feel really disappointed and I don't think I'll be able to sleep without them. They're my source of hope. They're exploding balls of gas, but they create and everlasting, beautiful legacy that helps people find their way.
Today - 14th January 2017 - a blog post draft
Looks like I see stars quite differently now. Previously, only 7 months beforehand, I had seen stars as a reason for relaxation and a beautiful accompaniment to the darkness of the sky. As a time for me to just stop and take it all in. More recently, however, as I've become more and more dependent on the little hope and motivation I have left, I see stars as a hope for the future. They're exploding, they should be dead and gone, but instead they become beautiful lights in the sky amongst all that darkness. Even after the initial explosion (once there is little fuel left to continue burning), the stars become smaller until they expand and become red giants (then white giants, black giants). Even the really massive stars, their core turns into iron when they run out of fuel, which makes it collapse and explode into a supernova. These balls of gas explode in on themselves, then continue to burn until they can't any longer, then they become even more beautiful. I like to think that people can be like that :))
"Stars, they got nothing on us"
- Light The Sky Grace Vanderwaal
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